Flying High (full evening sun)
I'm tired.
I need some kicks in the butt and some encouragement. I'm battling depression and losing interest in everything that gives me joy, including - dare I say it? - Nail Polish! *background shriek goes here*
I think I'm fighting depression along with all the other health issues. I just want to be comfortable. I think all the hurt feelings and lashing out that I'm seeing isn't helping, and I'm not singling out any one group of people either, I'm seeing it everywhere. I'm just so tired.
I ask you, wonderful readers and fellow bloggers, drop me a comment to put a smile on my face, a song in my heart or just a little bit of sunshine-y hope back into my thoughts. Because as lovely as this color is, it didn't help much. :(
One little piece of info to add here regarding "Flying High." The photos above represent what I've seen all over the web to show this color. Even my camera picked it up this way. Flying High is not this color! It's more teal, it's like For Audrey's darker sister. It's For Audrey more saturated. So I futzed with the color a bit and here are pictures that capture the polish color better, just ignore what color correcting did to my skin.
Almost right...(shade)
Even Better! (shade)
And still, I can't quite capture it...
Have a good evening. Thanks for reading! I value your comments, your friendships and your blogs.
G'nite. :)
Kay, I've been very tired from having a hard time myself lately. One thing that can always cheer me up is the song Ordinary Day by Great Big Sea. I kind of talk about them a lot on my blog because they're my favorite band. But seriously, that song ALWAYS makes me feel a little better and like things will be okay. I'm not trying to force my fave band on you or anything, but maybe try listening to that? It my only idea.
ReplyDeleteI love your blog, the idea of you losing interest in nail polish makes me sad. I really hope you start feeling better soon!!!
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<333 cheer up! Things may be tough, things may just downright suck, but I always try to count my blessings. Life is short. Too short for many. I try to see the great impacts I've made on people, and I try to be grateful for all the wonderful things in my life. Even if it's the little things in life that count, (for example: you mention you have a son. A lot of people in the world can't have children even if they wanted to, nail polish- a lot of people in the world are starving and dying because they don't have food, yet we have money to spend on products to beautify ourselves.) the list goes on. Please don't be so sad. I love seeing your posts, and I can't wait to see you back at your perky state. =] I wish you the best of luck and hope you overcome this obstacle. <333 *hugs* from Los Angeles, CA.
ReplyDeleteI have this color too, you are right it's like For Audrey sister.
ReplyDeleteI hope you feel better soon :(
I had those days too, I agree with Tierney when I feel like very sad and tired I listen to my fave music, I love to dance so some salsa or cumbia always cheer me up! ^_^.
I always dance with my dogguie , but he bites me lol!,because hubby hates to dance :D .
I hear ya! Looks like we are about the same age. We are living in some strange days! And they keep getting stranger! I figure if my nails are polished I can hang on to the edge a little longer without them breaking. :) And don't forget to Pray, and get outside and plant some flowers! That is my Rx. for the week. Hugs!
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Aww honey, chin up. Trust me when I say it DOES get better. Believe in yourself and believe that the universe will look after you. Try and think positive, it works - believe me I know. I am just crawling out of the hole as we speak.
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PS I LOVE Flying High.
Sorry to read you're having a hard time. I've been struggling too over the past 18mths and the only advice I can offer is to seek support from friends as much as possible. I've been living away from my friends and I really miss them. Be kind to yourself too.
ReplyDeleteI would never have thought you were going through that just from reading your blog. You always sound so full of cheer and encouragement. Now, it seems that you need the cheer and encouragement yourself! I'd like to offer you a hug. A big one! My advice is to seek alternative outlets to distract your mind. Nail polish is a grrrreeat distraction! Feel blessed that you have a lovely son. And, as what Sylvia said, pray. You're not alone. :)
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ReplyDeleteSometimes it would be nice to go back to when you were a kid and you felt bad and your mom gave you a hug ans told you everything would be al right and you'd instantly feel better because mom is always right and she will make things al right again.
I hope you work things out. Maybe you should consider seeing a doctor about this. Some problems can get better with a little distraction and some need to be handled head on. You can do it!
Elizabeth I wish I could be there to give you a big hug =) It saddens me that you are going through so much. Health issues are bad enough and I can't imagine the pain depression causes you. Everyone here really loves reading your blog and it's awesome how successful you have been. You're the best - don't forget it! We all love you =)
ReplyDeleteI understand... I can just hope you to feel better. (((hugs)))
ReplyDeleteI'm with Kaz!
ReplyDeleteThink positive and believe the universe will help you if you genuinely ask for it...
What I have also discovered is that food with lots of sugar and bad things are a big fat no no...
Grab life by it's balls!
Come on woman, you need to get ready for you and you alone!
Start shifting things, things you can change and things that you cannot change.
Ask for strength to make the change and courage to carry the one's you cannot.
And last but not least...
Baby steps, dear, baby steps, Rome wasn't build in one day either!
(Oh and listen to the lyrics of James Taylor's Secret O'life... =) )
I couldn't capture it properly either. I tried so hard but it always came out bluer than it is. All I know is that it's gorgeous!
ReplyDeleteHi..I've only just stumbled across your blog.And seeing your request for encouragement, I just had to leave a comment for you. I have suspected sometimes too whether I have depression. I do sometimes feel like I have it, so maybe I do know how you feel. Of course I wouldn't know what is causing it, but I know its not easy to get out of it. For me, I find that what makes me feel better is when my loved one hugs me so tightly that my constant lonely battle seems not so lonely anymore, my body rigid from constantly pretending to be strong softens and hope comes back..even if it does go away again and again over time, I just need another hug,and talks, and some tears..and then I feel much better.
ReplyDeletePlease don't stop loving nail polish. We all need something to love, and our loved ones should love us for who we are and whatever we love. Stay strong, I'd give u a hug if I were there =)
Do have a look at my blog if u have time..its a personal one,where I often update it with my thoughts and feelings on certain things. Hope you have a lovely sweet pretty day!
www.mysteriousjade.blogspot.com
I totally feel you with the depression thing. Between my health issues and the weather here, I have been very blah the last few days myself. My motivation for everything has completely flown out the window. Mostly, all I want to do is curl up with a cup of coffee and a book and ignore everyone and everything, but that is not possible. I hope that you start feeling better soon, you can always email me if you want to talk! Listen to some good music, watch an old movie that you love, and hang out with some girlfriends! {{hugs}}
ReplyDeleteBTW, that color is gorgeous, even if it was impossible to capture properly!!
Hey hun!
ReplyDeletefirst of all: {{{HUGE MASSIVE HUG}}}
secondly, I really think it's going around. So many people I know are feeling this way. Even my Mom who is the happiest most positive person I know, has been in a funk lately.
I highly recommend getting your serotonin levels checked. You many be low!
Hugs & cheers heading your way. I know how you are feeling. It isn't always easy to stay positive when things don't seem to be going your way. I feel like you sometimes in that I planned on what I wanted to do with my life and it went in a totally different direction. For me starting my blog was a way for me to start heading in the right direction, a piece of me out there the way I want it to be. Keep your chin up girl and stay positive. I know this will sound silly - but I watched an Oprah show once that said luck doesn't happen to people who don't take chances. It said to write a vision board of where you picture yourself. I made one and put pictures of a house on the water, nails, friends and a what I felt would represent me in a good job. I put it out there and would you believe 6 months later we got an assignment to FL, a house on the water, a great job, met great friends and now I have a nail blog that makes me happy! You have to put what you want out there in the universe and it will help you make it happen. I have taken several chances in the last few years and feel that I am starting to reep the rewards. Not every day is easy - there are days when I just don't want to get out of bed, but I make myself do it. Since making that vision board a few years ago, I have made adjustments to it and I keep trying to take chances. Just remember if you want the luck - you have to put yourself out there to get it! If you ever just feel like talking - email me and we can exchange numbers. It seems we have a lot in common. I'm here for you girl!
ReplyDeleteBy the way bravo on taking color accurate pics. I often think my pic colors look so different than what I see online sometimes, but I take pics until I get the exact color or as close as possible to what is in the bottle. I think it is worth the extra effort. I appreciate that you did the same. Your nails look amazing as usual. I dream of having nails like yours one day - maybe I will have to put a pic of your nails on my vision board!
I didn't comment yesterday because i've been feelin' kind of poopy too. It's hard to say something positive when you aren't feeling it yourself. I just finished watching a good movie and my mood has improved. Have you seen Where the Wild Things Are? I know it's a kids movie, but I thought it was wonderful. Glad you are feeling better. (From what I can see in todays post anyways!)
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warm thoughts sent your way - One of the most surprising things i have found out in life, is that even those who seem to have it all- are doing well and 'successful' & financially stable = can also be down and blue.
ReplyDeleteI enjoy reading your blog - and hope that by viewing other peoples blogs, ( lifestyle & personal ) that people see that we all struggle with the same issues..... and many people do succeed!
Hi Elizabeth! Boy, do I know how you're feeling. I've been struggling with being down for the last month or so. Moving has kind of taken my mind off of things, but we have been struggling to make ends meet too, the economy has been rough on us. I hope we made a move in the right direction.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to think about how little we had to worry about when we were kids. Sometimes it amazes me how unaware I was of what the big bad world was really like. I hope things will improve for you - I keep thinking, and I hope you will too - got nowhere to go but up!
Many hugs!